Mine♥

2011-12-30T13:48:00.006+08:00

Behind my smile is everything you’ll never understand.

Hihihi. Woke up and received messages asking what class I was in. And they told me I was in 307, while all my friends are in 308. Okay, that is really torturous. Even though I had some friends in the same class but almost my whole clique is in 308?!?!?! WHAT?!?! Why me? Why? Haiz :/ But Chiong Gin Hao, is not in my class so is Bavan. Really wondering who my teacher is gonna be! And how did the school even put everyone is the classes?! And what is happening to the school! Ms Xie just called, saying that she won't be our teacher next year anymore :/ And Ms kuek has left the school to continue her studies :/ Ms Xie say next year is gonna be a fun year and a year to make new friends. LOL. Hopefully it's gonna be a good year. (:

Idk, but there are many times. Almost everytime actually, I hope you are there, or even right beside. But it's impossible, of course. Times like .................... I really hoped. Sometimes, I wonder why are we so close in "text" but in real life AWKWARD! I also wonder, what this friendship is. Hmmmm.

Hope you are enjoying your camp and is not injured! Still can't accept the fact about the classes, :/ That's all, Byeee

2011-12-27T23:14:00.002+08:00

I just felt like the worst friend/person on earth, a friend nobody ever needed.

2011-12-27T18:37:00.013+08:00

Friends are the most important ingredient in this recipe of life.

Hello. Hello. Hello. ANOTHER bored day! Dance practice was not really okay, they said it was suppose to be combined and the scouts came at like going 4pm -.- And i got freaked out during practice. great.... Saw _____, said Hi but seems like you are avoiding me. Saw you at Lot again, but luckily no walking past each other if not dont know what will happen :/ I really miss how we were last time, so much fun. :') I read your blog too, i really love those morning talks, so I really hope that the morning talks will continue when school reopens. And it would be a great time for us to tell each other everything, even the untoldables. LOL. hahaha. But really, I had lots of fun with the clique it's like another family i never had. But sometimes I dont know why some other things just attacks me, making me really have no idea what to do, so ignore those craps.

So many problems, so many things, how?!?!?!

Saw _____ in school too and someone said red and black makes me think of you again. The only 3 people i tell almost all my problems too, 1 is enjoying her holiday and will only be back a day before school reopens, and the other having friendship problems that isn't suppose to exist. While the other, not talking for a few days already. So means keep it too myself, like always (: Can see you are tired of all this, just forget all this bah. :/ No other way. Cause if everything repeats again, and i dont wish for another cold war to appear. So if you are seeing this, I also really dont know what to do. Cause things are like quite difficult. And I really think you did enough. Blame myself for not having courage for being timid.

Lifegroup outing tml, hoping my mama would let me go! And 29th got guides ROD thing, still trying to find a present. Hope that NgWenYi quickly comes back too :( Okay, that's all. Bye! Bye! Bye!

I REALLY HOPE EVERY SINGLE THING WILL BE BACK TO NORMAL. ALL THOSE NATURAL AWESOME SMILES AND LAUGHTERS WILL BE BACK!

2011-12-26T21:40:00.006+08:00

Friendship isn’t a big thing – it’s a million little things.

Hello, Christmas has just passed hope everyone had a enjoyable and wonderful Christmas celebration cause Christmas is the Birth of Jesus! My Christmas was at Festive Hotel at Sentosa! But I dont know why the Christmas spirit like not there. Hmmm. But I received a few presents! New Years in a few day time and so is school! Need to quickly do my homework. Sure cannot finish. dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Dont really have anything to do now. hmmm. I miss talking to you, miss the sound of my phone ringing about hundreds time. hahahaha. Walked pass the sentosa gift shop and remember that time i bought the glowstick. :/ uh, past few days I dont know why but i like some robot, dont feel anything one. But today I got flooded by everything. I can't forgive myself because back then you were to over nice to me.... Miss dance practice too and the girls too. But lucky I'm seeing them tomorrow! wahahahaha, and on 29th! And I''m almost done with my unique iPhone casing! Hope it would turn out well.....

And you girl, why have you change so much? What happened? Does popularity really means so much to you? I really don't recognise you anymore. Please, dont be the person I'm imagining you to be. please dont.

-Shall go continue reading my book and do my last few stitching. Bye!

2011-11-08T22:26:00.005+08:00

Photography is a way of feeling, of touching, of loving. What you have caught on film is captured forever. It remembers little things, long after you have forgotten everything ~

HelloHello,

Today is somehow a good day uh. Went swimming and pool with TohEthel and NgWenYi. (: Teach Wenyi how to play pool, quite okay lah. Not bad uh her. And also bought a new cover. Heehe. Changed my screen protector no more glitter, gonna take more from cousin :P And also changed the button sticker on my home button. Reach home around 7pm.

This post is for another main reason, somehow for me to say everything I can say. I really don't know what is happening. It started of that day when you started to give temper or attitude. Tried to be nice and ask why. But that mean guy just doesn't want to leave the nice guy alone. And I seriously don't know how you can say you are nothing to me. Thanks for saying that. I can't believe what I did, my efforts were just stupid bullshits, useless rubbish. Just throw them in the bin kay, oh wait you shouldn't. They are not even stupidly worthy to be in the bin, they are worst than that. Hmm. And if you really think you are nothing to me. Go ahead, I'm not gonna stop you. Let's just say I wasted your stupid 10 months okay, that 10 months of memories that shouldn't be existing. I'm so sorry for that. All I wanna say is stop wasting your precious time of this stupid useless girl. Use your time on something else, something much much better than me. I'm not worth your time. Go make more new friends, I'm sure 1 of them will become a good and better textbuddy than this uselessgirl. And 25/11 is not an special day. Not even for me. It's just a stupid day when some useless girl was brought to this world. All I hope is that you keep your promise and get your 4As during your N'level. Remember to work hard and dont anything to distract you. That's all I got to say, the rest I rather keep it to myself. No point. I prefer keeping everything to myself. Bye.

2011-10-22T20:27:00.006+08:00

I'm like a shooting star, I've come so far I can't go back to where I used to be.

Hello,

Superduperwuper bored now. In the room looking after Geralyn, nothing to do so shall update my blogg!!! (:

Friday 21/10/2011 (Yesterday)

Went to school as per normal and had Sports festival 2! FUN! Had Golf again, kinda expecting another sport like the second sport. Wanted to play dodgeball, but uh nehmind golf was okay. Golf was like training with coach with is free. LOLOLOL. First day was at Seletar second day was at Sembawang but at Sembawang met the 2 coach who instructed us at Seletar! So awesome! Took photo with the coach Ansari and DONNA!!! :D heehe. Than went back to school had a loooooooooooong time to prepare myself for Guides! on Friday cause River Valley (RV) guides came and they could only make it on Friday. Fun day uh. Played games with them. And because sec1 got recruitment camp for counsilors than all our sec1s missing! suppose to have 20 groups in the game in the end only got 10 groups! And there was 5 stations! My group was group 1, and I was with 2 RV guides. Rachel and Kimberly. Sec1s, who was taller than me T_T after that went home with awesome guides, like usual! Took our own sweet time cause didnt want to go home so early. heehe. Met bats on the way home. Reach home around 7+ going 8 bah. Bathe than start nannying again. Made Geralyn to sleep, but somehow half-sleep while making her to sleep. Hahaha. But in the end, both sleep together. Than woke up when aunt came back home and earned 50 dollars tip that means they went to casino after going to the hospital to visit relative!

Saturday 22/10/2011 (Today)

Woke up at like 9am in the morning, without dad waking me up. FYI, parents went overseas. coming back tml. Woke up super early cause slept at like 10pm, hahhaha. Super tired mah. Than played with Geralyn a while before they went to the hospital for check up i think. Left house and went to Beauty World Mac for brunch and to meet friends. Brought Vanessa, Bryan (Her friend), Jungho and choi (his friend). And than headed to church. Praise and worship was awesome! Than service with Pastor Chris Long who came from KL. A very nice and funny Pastor. Last week service and today's service impacted me a lot cause it's about Friendship and I have quite some friendship problems and I'm always the middle person helping my friends with their friendship problems. After that was Small group! During small group they made me laugh out loud until my stomach hurt! Than went Beauty World Top Floor, to accompany Life group for dinner. And than headed home. Walked home alone did quite some thinking and met bats AGAIN, because my brotherrr pangseh me for his domino's pizza. Went home to eat dinner(:

Now, I'm watching iCarly. And thinking over things. I have an emptiness in me, and there's only 1 person who can fill it up. And the person is God. I need God. I'm despo for him. Need him in my life so badly. But I keep neglect him, and forget He loves me. It's like that relationship with Him is getting weaker and distanced. :(

And you write on msn, "When will this cold war end?" Hmmmm, about 30 minutes ago I thought that the 10 months was gonna stop. No more memories. But maybe I'm wrong. IDK. But it's like this morning I thought things was gonna get better, but it was just a False Alarm that I believed. At first when I saw my phone saying a message from you I didnt dare to see it but in the end I did. And I somehow smiled when you told me that somehow good news. But your tweet reminded me.... Reminded me about everything. Suddenly, everything in my mind became Negative, I kept thinking negatively....

That's all for today uh. What a looooooooooooooooooooooooooong post. Heehe. Maybe I might sleep early today. Maybe only. hahaha. Byebye.

Love, Joeyy.

2011-10-20T17:23:00.005+08:00

The only people you need in your life are the ones that need you in theirs.

Hellooo,
This post is for someone special to me. Someone who really means a lot to me, a good friend of mine. [225222!] Hope you would read this, when you see the link and come to my blog. Firstly, I want to say I'm very sorry. I'm superduperwuper sorry. I dont know what happened, but I feel so useless. I'm sorry that you are the one who is always putting in the effort, but not me. I'm always the one spoiling things. I'm sorry. It's been 10 months, I've known you for 10 months. The most wonderful friendship I have, in my life. Even though we always give each other attitude, no idea why, but I know you and I never felt good. And I'm sorry because my mind keeps telling me I'm typical, there's so many other better people than me out there. why. me. why. me. I'm sorry I keep thinking that you can survive when you say you can't survive a day without texting. There's so many people to text, and 24 hours is nothing hard cause there was once which was 7 days, maybe can say 8 days. But I guess it's kinda hard, even for me. Kay, no idea what I'm saying. LOL. We are just good friends but why do I get Jealous?!?! and you too. I really dk why. I never took you as just a friend I need whenever I'm bored or what so ever. If you really want to think it that way, I can say nothing but okay...... And you ask if it would reach till 33333, I really dont know. But I know you really hope it would, so do I bah. Time past, everything is different. We can't turn time back, we can only make now better and overcome the changes. Or either throw and delete everything, and forget about this friendship. Memories will stay, what you always say which is true. hahaha. That's why my life became so wonderful, so awesome [HEEHE. My favourite word] Awesome, once my favourite word ---AwesomeJoeyy. Now I can't bring myself to say that. Now my mind is flooded with useless me...... BUT I've got something to tell you, I pass all my subjects (: My effort payed off, even though I'm not satisfied with some subjects. What about you? results okay? (: There's so much more I wanna tell you but there's just too much to say, and it's impossible to say all. And when you are reading this, you should be very tired cause you just finish CCA, so rest early and dont go down to visit your monkey bar and don't think so much. Also by the time you read this, it's past 24hours :') Great job? Lastly (same as the first thing I said), I'm very very very super duper wuper sorry.

Love, TohJoeyy.

2011-10-02T16:37:00.004+08:00

Happiness depends upon ourselves ♥

HEEHE. HELLO! Sorry for my AWESOME RETARDED FACE! Uh, updating my blog cause I have nothing to do! Suppose to be finishing my Art work - My dream house. But very hard to do! Need inspiration! YAY! Dad just called and say he is gonna bring me to BPP to make new specs and buy new slippers. YIPPEE! Mission success :D End-Of-Year coming... MUST WORK HARD TO TAKE THE SUBJECT I WANT! AMATHS!!! And also aim for my through-train!!! HEHEHE. English paper over, means 1 less subject to worry about. Now I need to mug for my Science (Physics and Chemistry) and History! Mum bought 4 tubs of Haagen Dazs cause I told her i need ice cream for motivation. HEEHE. After exam, I will be waiting for sports festival and US!!! TEEHEE. HAPPYGIRL. Next whole week, Baby Geralyn is gonna stay at our house cause her parents go overseas, gonna have a baby at home! And also I watch Johnny English Reborn with Shernie, Huiyi, Adeline, xiumei and Ah meh (Dk how to spell) LOL. Funny! But during the movie dk i started to think a lot. Felt very insecure, I know I'm weird. Like in the middle of the movie. LOL. Kay, weird. I know. Still thinking uh, why so complicated!!! Kay, that's all. Waiting for tml to see those awesome people. Just simply love them (:

Buhbyeee,
AwesomeJoeyy♥

2011-09-10T23:52:00.006+08:00

Rare as true love is, true friendship is rarer.

See the photo up there? Hmmm, I miss them! Now is like going to the end of the 1 week September holiday, so I'm gonna see them soon! Yippee, Happy. Heehe. But it means school starting and I'm not done with the homework! I rather go to school everyday than have holiday flooded with homework! Kay, I should be finishing my homework now but I'm blogging. LOL. It's been long so I thought of like change the skin and blog. hahahaha. And also It's like a new blog, cause I deleted all the older post cause like start over a new blog mah! Teehee. Kay, today went to church! Praise God! That awesomely, wonderfully and mighty God! Today, was totally awesome. Worshiping God. It's been long since the governmenthighs went to church. Haizzzz, I want to bring those who have not went before and also those who went before. I hope they all become regulars. Even if lifegroup have to split, it's okay. Cause they know God, they have God in their life. It would be perfect! They need Him in their lifes, they have quite complicated problems that they don't know what to do, they need Him! Uh, shall not give up! And I know one day they will know you Lord, and will praise You and worship You! God I pray that you will lead me along and tell me how to convince them, to have faith and courage! (: hmmm, my eyes like sore now :( And itchy, so uncomfortable. Shall not sleep late, and look forward to another awesome day God has planned for me! And somebody went to sleep early, nobody to talk to. But it's okayy!!! LOL. That's all I guess. Byebye.

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